Just the Facts:
Weeks pregnant: 12 weeks, 2 days
Gain: -2 overall
Size of the baby: About as long as a plum’s diameter. A bit longer than 2 inches.
Weight: half an ounce.
Other pregnancy related crap:
Emotional crap: My husband was in port for a couple days, so we were able to Skype a few times. Seeing him turn to mush when he saw Anneliese, and seeing our girl get SO excited to talk to her dada and show him toys definitely made my throat catch a bit. I miss him so much, and I know he is missing us, and sad that so much of this pregnancy has to be relayed to him through email, pictures, and occasional phone calls. So, there’s that. It is what it is.
Physical crap: Some hours I feel energetic (not some DAYS) which means I’ve cleaned some random things, and tried to keep up the “basic” house stuff – dishes, laundry, taking out trash and recycling, etc… but for the most part I’m still so so tired. I don’t know how a tiny tiny baby can suck so much out of me. I know some people don’t experience this in pregnancy, but a lot of people do. At this point, I feel like I SHOULD have energy and life should be “normal” but since I don’t, I feel like some sort of lazy person… which is completely lame.
What I want to devour: Everything everyone else is eating. It usually sounds amazing to me. I don’t want to cook it. I want it to be magically and instantly in front of me. I ate quesadillas like 3 times in the last week – just cheese in tortillas with sour cream for dipping. And today I bought ingredients for tacos, which will be the first meat I’m attempting to cook for myself in a long time. I hope it works out. I’m thinking about deviled eggs too. But I’m not sure if I can handle the smell of boiling eggs. We’ll see.
What makes me want to hurl: So much still.
Supplements: Prenatal vitamin, calcium that has a little bit of Vitamin D in it. Vitamin D3, Fish Oil.
Dr. Anneliese writing me a prescription for vitamins:
Activity/Training: see above: lazy exhausted woman. This is bad. Very bad.
According to this, I’m having a boy. Haha. Did all the pregnant women reading this just grab their boobs?
I had an appointment with the OB to do another follow-up ultrasound and make sure the fluid that was in the baby’s brain area went away like it should have. Anneliese was a star in the waiting room and the exam room, and then when I was giving blood for some screens. When I had to give a urine sample, the phlebotomists fought over who would get to hold her. It was sweet. The only time she cried was when I came BACK from the bathroom. I think she didn’t even realize I was gone until that moment, and then it was a bit surprising and scary for her.
No fluid in my baby’s brain. Just as it should be. Everything looked great, and maybe I’m biased, but I think this kid is adorable.
Baby prep: I glanced at some used minivan listings just to get a feel for what’s out there and prices… yup, need to save save save. My little car will fit two car seats, but not 2 babies AND a dog AND luggage if we are going on a family trip somewhere. So it’ll be fine until we find the right “upgrade” for the right price.
Tandem nursing / BOOBS:
Still going strong. When Anneliese is sleepy though, she doesn’t want to nurse for very long. She DOES want to nurse… tries to open my shirt herself. But she only wants a minute or so before she switches to her pacifier and wants to go to sleep.
When she wakes in the morning, she wants to snuggle and nurse for a long time (still with water in between “sips”). Yesterday when she was doing that, I became curious if she was getting much milk or not, so I expressed a bit to see… and squirted her in the face. Squirts almost never happen for me. So… I guess this is a sign that production is just fiiine.
If we’re busy during the day – a lot of errands and such – Anneliese seems to “forget” about nursing as much, but when we are home and it’s quiet she crawls over to me and signs “milk” which is so sweet. She seems to be moving from baby nursing into toddler nursing – from getting the bulk of her nutrients and calories from mama-milk to mostly nursing for comfort and closeness.
Almost forgot the belly pic. My whole abdomen is like a gentle slope of lump, not really like a “baby bump” looking body. It’ll happen. For now I just feel kind of ambiguously puffy though.